Hmmmm. (pondering) Boyd K Packer gives counsel to "put difficult questions in the back of your mind and go about your lives. Ponder and pray quietly and persistently about them. The answer may not come as a lightening bolt. It may come as a little inspiration here and a little there., "line upon line, precept upon precept". Some answers will come from reading the scriptures, some from hearing speakers. And, occasionally, when it is important, some will come by very direct and powerful inspiration." I can truly say I need this Church, for when I'm discouraged and I get back to studying as I should I am always, uplifted and strengthened.
I can say I have had inspiration come to me in all three of those mentioned above in very mysteriously ways and times. I know Heavenly Father is very aware of me and my family. I also know He has a time frame of what is best because he knows me perfectly! Buuuuuttttttttttt, that doesn't make anything easy or the development of myself easy. And the line upon line and precept upon precept concept, all in good time. All in good time! Wow, it is very difficult to be patient. So guess that is what I'm supposed to develop further right now. But we are promised the "sweet moments" will come and that we are to treasure them.
Still HARD to put the difficult questions in the back of my mind though.
I'm sure Heavenly Father finds us quite humorous as he sees the eternal perspective and I am so shortsighted. Oh well, try try again. See I am out to lunch, babbling on and on. Hope you get something out of this one!